Friday, July 28, 2006

I'm Afraid...

Before Avery came along and I was still working out of the home, I was jealous of the people who got to manage their time how they wanted. I was even a little upset when they talked about their 'problems' (ie: they couldn't find the right slip to go under the skirt they bought for their daughter for that weekend's homecoming party) while I was trying to juggle a 40 hour work week, coaching volleyball in the evenings and weekends, plus trying to keep up with the laundry, dishes and cleaning. Then of course there were the silly things that came up where you had to stay on hold with Knology for an hour and a half because they mixed your bill up with someone else's. I know there were times when I felt frazzled, but somehow, it all got done.

I'm very afraid that I have lost the ability to manage my time wisely. Now that I get to be a stay at home mom, I have more time to get the housework finished, make sure Avery's fed and taken care of, plus take care of my coaching responsibilities. I've taken out a huge chunk (40 hour work week), and still don't feel like I have the time to get things done. The up side to this is that I don't really feel frazzled..ever. I think because the things that I feel I need to get done are the things I want to get done. For example, I've started another quilt..that's not a pressing matter, but it would be fun to have extra time to work on it. I'm sure everyone out there has a hobby, and they would like to have time to work on that as well.

So I guess the moral of the story is that even though no matter how much time you have, somehow it's always going to get filled. The great part is that at least I'm filling my time with things I want to do instead of things I have to do! (Except there are still times that I have to stay on hold forever trying to get some silly problem fixed; at least it's not Knology...but that's a whole other story.)

9 comments:

Supabloggasuprememama said...

I am SOOO Glad you feel that way. I have felt that way too ever since i became a mom. I feel like everyone thinks i eat bon bons and watch passions all day, but sometimes I feel quite overwhelmed at what nedes to be done, and then at other times, could care less, yet still have along, infact, neverending list! ahhhh.

hey we really need to get together soon. never heard back from you in that email...is that because you are the one who left me the mean comment on my blog? ;)
lata

sunny said...

Tonight I told Jason that there were not enough hours in the day. I look forward to the days when I can just stay home and do what I want. As a stay at home mom, I feel that I am busier now than before. I like my time. The thought of going back to work sickens me.

Jason and I drove past a daycare tonight that has closed. I mentioned that if I was the organized type that I could lease/buy the building and run a daycare center and makes lots and lots of money (ha ha). He told me that if I did that I would not be able to devote as much time to raising our own two kids. In his words, I would be devoting my time to raise other peoples "snot nosed" little kids. It always makes me feel good to know that I have his constant support.

Jamey said...

Ashley..the rude comment was not me! We do need to get together. Last week was busy. Sometimes I think I email people back, but then find out that I somehow didn't..oops.

Jamey said...

Oh, and Sunny, you are VERY MUCH the organized type and I think would be perfect to run a daycare. I would send my kids there if I had to use daycare. Jason does have a point though. Maybe that's something you could do after they leave home...but then you'd feel as if you raised kids your whole life!

Lerra said...

OMGAH...I SO want to be a stay at home mom. You just made it sound even better than it did in my head! :-)

Jason said...

Being a stay at home mom is a lot tougher than I ever thought it was. Now that we have kids, I know full well how hard Sunny works. She works harder now than she ever has. Anybody who thinks stay at home moms have it easy has obviously never been a stay at home mom. But I know that Sunny's hard work will come back to us someday. She pours herself into our kids -- and she does it with such joy, I might add -- in a way that no one else could. I think being a mother is probably the highest calling a person can have. Very special indeed. Keep up the good work, ladies.

Supabloggasuprememama said...

Amen, Jason. Amen. brownie points for you! Kiss him, Sunny!

Kathy said...

You girls hang in there! I never regretted that choice for a minute. I did home day care for other children twice when we needed extra money and I would strongly encourage you all NOT TO! Love those babies, and give them all a hug for me! Love ya, MamaKat

Kathy said...

Oh, and, I wish I had discovered this lady when mine were young! www.flylady.net

hugs,

MamaKat